“Reflecting my Heavenly Father on a Down Day”

“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.” (Matthew 5:14, English Standard Version)

Today, as God helps me, I am a living reflection of my Heavenly Father.” (My twelve-step affirmation this morning)

But I don’t feel much like the light of the world or a living reflection of God this morning.  There are reasons.

  • My wife left and will be gone for a day-and-a-half.
  • It is cool and rainy.
  • The daylight hours are short.
  • My favorite brother-in-law has covid-19.
  • My hands hurt it (arthritis?) so badly that I can hardly type or hold my coffee cup.
  • I am worried about the upcoming election and its aftermath.
  • Today is the first anniversary of the closing of CCU, where I taught for eleven years.
  • I am trying to change my relationship with food.  (That is a very positive thing, but difficult, nonetheless.)

But I refuse to do anything to make a difficult day worse.  I refuse to think harmful thoughts toward myself or anyone else.  I refuse to eat a bunch of junk food.  That would make me feel a little better for a little while, but it would also cause me to feel a lot worse in a little while.

Instead, I do positive things, no matter how I feel.

  • I take and make 12-step calls and text friends.
  • I make myself a cup of vanilla caramel tea and drink it out of a butterfly meadow cup.
  • I read some good Scriptures (no Ecclesiastes today, thank you very much!) and other good readings as well.
  • I take good care of our little dog, who is a wonderful companion.
  • I send a text to my wife about what I’m feeling. (She texts right back with the most encouraging text I’ve ever received from anyone.)
  • I listen to a TobyMac c.d.
  • I turn on virtually every light we have on the lower level of our Cape Cod.
  • I write this blog post and publish it.

I will reflect God’s love and grace no matter how I feel on this or any other day.

Leave a Reply

Follow on Feedly