Posts Tagged: wrestling with myself

“WRESTLING WITH A PROJECT . . . AND MYSELF”

 

Monday, April 2, 2018

I am not so much trying to write a decent scholarly paper on Ruth and Mary, as I am trying to write a decent version of Daryl.

But I have writer’s block.  And the block is also named Daryl.  I never believe that I’ve read enough, that I’ve thought enough, that I know enough (that I am enough) to write something worthwhile.  This was true for the first paper I ever wrote in high school.  It was true for all my college papers.  It was true for my Ph.D. dissertation.  It is still true.

Am I really struggling to write and be something “worthwhile?”  Or do I mean “perfect?”

So, as I listen to a song on You Tube, I wrestle with my own self-expectations.  (I love Terry Wollman’s song “Survive”!)

Of course if you wrestle with yourself, you are bound to lose.  Perhaps surviving this wrestling match is the name of the game.  Or, better, perhaps the name of the game is surrender to God?

 

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