“Letting Myself Be Loved”

I did not sleep long enough last night (in my opinion). However, what do I know?! In any case, here I am!

God, in terms of step 11, if your will is that I go back to bed and sleep a while longer, I wouldn’t be opposed to such a thing. Four hours or so of sleep doesn’t feel like enough.

My wife and I got quite a bit of our garden worked up and planted yesterday. It was great fun playing in the mud with my lovely lady. I felt as if we were back in the Garden of Eden. Despite the thorns and thistles, we are still commissioned to work the soil.

Here is a wonderful epigraph from one of my 12-step readings this morning: “What is moral is what you feel good after.”

  —Ernest Hemingway

Sounds about right to me!

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Listening to “Bali Run” and “Jean” on loop, at three in the morning, while eating almonds and drinking chocolate milk—nothing like it!

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And God said, “Just sit there, and let me love you.” So, I did!

Not anxious, not criticized, not expected to do anything. Just loved.

Sometimes, God doesn’t want anything at all from us, except for us to sit there and be loved. And blessed are those who allow God to do that!

A wonderful cool breeze ruffles the papers on my desk. No mighty rushing wind, no tongues of fire, just a wonderful cool breeze. It is enough, and more than enough.

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